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  HELEN DUNMORE

  THE MALARKEY

  Poetry Book Society Recommendation

  The malarkey is over in the back of the car… As soon as you turn your back, time slips. The humdrum present has become the precious, irrecoverable past. The ways in which the present longs for the past, questions it, tries to get in touch with it and stretches the power of memory to its limits, are central to this new collection by Helen Dunmore.

  Joseph Severn recalls Keats hurling a bad dinner out onto the steps of the Piazza di Spagna; the glamour of John Donne’s portrait ‘taken in shadows’ seduces a new generation; the dead assert their right to walk through the imaginations of the living… These are poems and stories of loss and extraordinary rediscovery.

  The Malarkey is Helen Dunmore’s first poetry book since Glad of These Times (2007) and Out of the Blue: Poems 1975-2001 (2001), a comprehensive selection drawing on seven previous collections. It brings together poems of great lyricism, feeling and artistry.

  ‘What is wonderful is the unusual way her steadiness as a writer serves as a foil to the mysterious. She prefers to show, not tell…The passing of time is crucial in this collection and especially its most violent trick of making years disappear in a moment…a collection filled with extraordinary, incorporeal moments and with vanishing acts…The personal poems are superb and anything but self-indulgent’ – Kate Kellaway, Observer

  ‘Her latest collection is a clear-eyed, sometimes funny, sometimes sad, meditation on time past and people lost…a superbly structured collection in which poems echo and answer each other’ – Suzi Feay, Independent on Sunday

  ‘This traffic between the everyday and mortality requires a perfect control of tone, neither sententious nor sentimental in this familiar setting… In its uninsistent but authoritative way, The Malarkey is a condition-of-England book, driven by a concern for those who have little purchase on their own lives… The Malarkey is Helen Dunmore’s best collection, the work of a grown-up for grown-ups who will remember what in the nature of things they’ve had to lose and what nevertheless they seek to celebrate’ – Sean O’Brien, Guardian

  COVER PAINTING:

  Odilon Redon: Flower Clouds (c. 1903)

  Pastel, with touches of stumping, incising, and brushwork, on blue-gray wove paper with multi-coloured fibres altered to tan, perimeter mounted to cardboard, 445 x 542 mm; through prior bequest of Mr & Mrs Martin A. Ryerson Collection, 1990.165, The Art Institute of Chicago.

  HELEN DUNMORE

  The Malarkey

  …the most beautiful thing on this dark earth…

  SAPPHO

  ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

  Acknowledgements are due to the editors of the following publications where some of these poems first appeared: The Guardian, The Independent, London Magazine, Poetry Ireland Review and Poetry Review. ‘The Malarkey’ won first prize in the National Poetry Competition in 2010.

  ‘I Owned a Woman Once’ was commissioned by Arts Council England’s website for the 2007 Bicentenary of the Abolition of the Slave Trade Act. ‘Writ in Water’ and ‘Taken in Shadows’ were first broadcast on BBC Radio 4, and ‘La Recouvrance’ was first broadcast on BBC Radio 3.

  CONTENTS

  Title Page

  Epigraph

  Acknowledgements

  The Malarkey

  Come Out Now

  The Inbox

  Boatman

  I Owned a Woman Once

  Longman English Series

  Writ in Water

  Dis

  Newgate

  At Ease

  Harbinger

  The Hyacinths

  The Night Workers

  Agapanthus above Porthmeor

  Visible and Invisible

  The Snowfield

  Lemon tree in November

  Bildad

  Skulking

  Basement at Eighteen Folgate Street

  Barclays Bank, St Ives

  Playing Her Pieces

  Pianist, 103,

  The Torn Ship

  Taken in Shadows

  Prince Felipe Prospero (1657–1661)

  Picture Messages

  Lethe

  The Queue’s Essentially

  The Captainess of Laundry

  The Day’s Umbrellas

  The Deciphering

  The Tarn

  The Gift

  What Will You Say

  Cloud

  I Have Been Thinking of You So Loudly

  The Kingdom of the Dead

  The Last Heartbeat

  The Old Mastery

  The Overcoat

  Window Cleaners at Ladysmith Road

  I Heard You Sing in the Dark

  La Recouvrance

  The Filament

  About the Author

  Copyright

  The Malarkey

  Why did you tell them to be quiet

  and sit up straight until you came back?

  The malarkey would have led you to them.

  You go from one parked car to another

  and peer through the misted windows

  before checking the registration.

  Your pocket bulges. You’ve bought them sweets

  but the mist is on the inside of the windows.

  How many children are breathing?

  The malarkey’s over in the back of the car.

  The day is over outside the windows.

  No street light has come on.

  You fed them cockles soused in vinegar,

  you took them on the machines.

  You looked away just once.

  You looked away just once

  as you leaned on the chip-shop counter,

  and forty years were gone.

  You have been telling them for ever

  Stop that malarkey in the back there!

  Now they have gone and done it.

  Is that mist, or water with breath in it?

  Come Out Now

  Come out now and stand beside me,

  grasp the rail as the swell lifts you

  above this inky, innocent city

  which has put away all but the whoop of an ambulance

  quickly suppressed, all but the chain of lights

  slung westward across the Mendips,

  all but the last cry of a drunk by the docks,

  the salt taste of a locked-out tide,

  the clipping hooves of a police horse.

  Come out now and stand beside me.

  I promise I won’t look

  and won’t breathe in too deeply

  the first smoke from the cigarette

  you have naturally lit.

  Here are only things you love.

  Look to your left, where the Matthew

  rears its cargo of flags,

  or where masts chink in the dark

  and a rat pours down a rope

  from bollard to boat.

  Come out now and stand beside me,

  look at the swans asleep,

  tell me gossip about Keats,

  drink your drink and smoke your cigarette,

  let me ask you all those questions

  or perhaps ask nothing.

  The gulls say dawn is coming

  but I believe that they are wrong

  and the dark goes on for ever,

  so come out now and stand here

  in shirtsleeves although it’s midwinter

  quietly regarding water and stars.

  The Inbox

  It is the same electrical impulse as ever.

  Look at the dates now: more than ten years

  since that first empty message,

  which was only your Hotmail address

  blinking its way to my inbox

  in slow, careful triumph

 
and with a touch of shyness: was this you, really,

  using voice-recognition software

  with such wary aplomb?

  And then email after email went AWOL

  and neither of us could work it out

  until: Yes, this time I got your brief note

  saying you had tried and tried, God knows

  where the previous emails went

  but now we’re in business.

  You tried to access the Kremlin webcam

  to catch a glimpse of me there,

  emailed my daughter to say how glad you were

  that you did not have to learn Swedish

  in order to enjoy Shakespeare.

  Sometimes the software failed. Lovelypage!

  you typed, Didn’t know of it before your email

  forgive brevity but my via-Voice is dumb.

  I told you that crashing was all too common

  and when the software worked, you wrote:

  This celebrates the return

  of your dictator father.

  How far, how very far from that

  you ever were.

  Boatman

  Give me that red tub like a child’s drawing

  give me the catamaran

  or the ferry zig-zagging

  give me any or all of them

  and meanwhile hold tight to my hand

  for the water is wide where we stand.

  The water is wide where we stand

  and we are weary with waiting

  but the boatman will not come.

  I gave you coins to hold ready

  but it must have been then

  that I looked away from the water

  and the boat came and went

  as you held on valiantly

  with your small change for Charon.

  We are cold and weary with waiting.

  You say there is no boatman

  there was never any boatman

  and I say, hold tight to my hand

  for the water is wide where we stand.

  I Owned a Woman Once

  so glossy-fleshed, so high-coloured

  my blood swept in my veins

  she was rich and heaped in the belly

  as the Bible says

  she was fertile as the bank of a river

  when the flood falls and the mud makes food,

  I clothed her as I wanted to clothe her

  I housed her as I wanted to house her

  I put food on her plate to fatten her,

  I owned a woman once so high-coloured

  so dark and rich in the eyes

  my blood would not be still in my veins

  my eyes would not stop watching her –

  a callous on her heel made my belly quiver –

  I put food on her plate to fatten her

  I put oil on her hair

  she was fertile as the bank of a river,

  I owned a woman once so high-coloured

  so slow and sure in her walk

  that all eyes walked with her,

  I owned her from broken toenail

  to breath that misted my mirror

  and I clothed her as I wanted to clothe her,

  her flesh hidden, her body shrouded

  while she fattened with my child,

  yes, mostly it was sweet to own her

  but sometimes I had to punish her

  for her eyes everywhere looking

  for all the moist folds of her body hidden

  and the rich darkness of her eyes looking.

  Soon it came to her time

  and this woman I owed lay on the ground

  in the room I kept for her

  with the midwife I paid for her

  but her belly would not release the child

  and the cage of her hips would not let go the child.

  The midwife said she came to it too young

  maybe, this woman I owned

  but believe me

  she was straight out of the Bible

  so glossy-fleshed, so high-coloured

  so heaped and rich in the belly

  with one bare callous on her heel.

  Longman English Series

  When I should be working

  on one of those afternoons

  where the lights come on early

  and rain spatters the windows

  I take down an anthology

  with a design of blue snowflakes

  over the purple ground –

  Longman English Series, Poetry

  1900 to 1965

  published (cased) in 1967.

  T.S. Eliot looks desperate

  in front of a BBC microphone

  the size of a parking meter

  and Thom Gunn’s as glamorous

  as his own sad captains.

  In the margins, my husband’s

  young unreadable handwriting –

  out of it springs a line,

  a pulse of thought

  he had years before we met.

  In Notes, Lawrence is mildly taken to task

  for the way his repetitions can degenerate,

  though warmly praised for ‘Gentians’.

  I remember the teacher’s voice

  as we dug our heels into the flanks

  of Sons and Lovers, on the home straight

  or so we thought,

  Does anyone know what he’s on about?

  Helen? But in Longman’s Elysian

  field the poems only answer

  and the poets only ask.

  Writ in Water

  They make him a plaster saint of poetry, with his eyes turned up to heaven. But it wasn’t like that.

  Winter. Rome at last. The terrible voyage from England was done. We’d found lodgings and a doctor. All he had to do was to get well.

  By day the noise of the fountain was almost hidden. There were women selling chickens and fresh milk, children playing, pails clattering, the creak of wheels and the clop of horses’ hooves. We used to count the different sounds, and he always won. But at night the fountain played clearly. Bernini’s fountain, with its fantastic coils of marble and gushing water.

  ‘Our Roman water is pure, not like the filthy water in Napoli,’ said our landlady, with a toss of her head. Signora Angeletti was slippery with the truth, but she was right about the water. I made sure there was always a full pitcher by his bed. Fever made him thirsty.

  They’ve burned everything in our lodgings. The table we ate off, the bed he lay in. Even the shutters that I swung open at dawn so that he could gaze down the steps to the piazza and the life of a new day. They stripped our rooms. It’s the law here. The Roman authorities are terrified of consumption.

  ‘Please move aside, Signor Severn. We have our duty to perform.’

  But the ceiling remains, the one he lay under. They couldn’t take away those flowers he gazed at every day until he died. Sometimes he thought he was already in his grave, with flowers growing over him. He dreamed of water bubbling out of the earth, and violets in damp, sweet grass.

  ‘You should be painting, Severn. Why are you not painting?’

  When we first came, when he was strong enough, he would sit in the winter sun and watch the artists in the piazza.

  ‘You have more talent than any of them, Severn.’

  I still have this little sketch of him: see. There were others but they’ve been lost. Maybe someone has taken them, I don’t know.

  When you draw something, you never forget it. It was night, and there was one candle burning. That was enough light to draw by. It was a still, mild night, even though it was only February. But Spring comes early in Rome. It was the last night of his life.

  The flame of the candle barely moved. The fountain was loud. He was asleep, cast up on the pillow like a shipwrecked man. His hair was stuck to his forehead with sweat.

  I shall never forget that night. He’d tried to prepare me. Warn me.

  ‘Have you ever seen anyone die, Severn? I have. I nursed my
brother Tom.’

  Sometimes, after a fit of coughing, he would lie so still that I thought he was already dead.

  ‘I must warn you, Severn, if you persist in nursing me you’ll see nothing of Rome but a sickbed and a sick man. Believe me, it’s better to give me the laudanum.’

  There was a full bottle of laudanum. I gave it to him drop by drop, as Doctor Clarke ordered.

  ‘Give me all of it, Severn. You don’t understand what it is to die as I am going to die.’

  But how could I allow him to destroy his immortal soul? I did not trust myself. I gave the laudanum to Dr Clarke, for fear I’d weaken.

  He asked me to go the cemetery. He wanted me to describe the place where he was to lie. I told him about the goats cropping the grass, the young shepherd guarding his flock, the daisies and violets that grew so thickly over the graves.

  ‘It’s very quiet,’ I told him. ‘You can hear the breeze blowing through the grass. There’s a pyramid which marks an ancient tomb.’

  He lay back and closed his eyes. After a while he asked me whose tomb it was.

  ‘I enquired,’ I told him. ‘His name was Caius Cestius, and he was a great man of the first century.’

  ‘A great man… A very rich man at least, my dear Severn, if he had a pyramid built for his tomb. Is it large?’

  ‘Large enough.’